I was recently asked if I’d “do everything exactly the same” if I had a chance to relive my life.
The honest answer is I really don’t know. I don’t quite feel compelled to even answer this question because for the most part, I haven’t finished living THIS life. How can I turn around and say that I’d change a few things if I haven’t had a clue as to where my past decisions (and/or mistakes) are already taking me? How do I know that everything that HAS occurred in my life from birth until now is systematically painting this beautiful future for me or not? I don’t. And for now, I can live with that. The truth of the matter is… and the only truth I do know right now… is that everything I have been through, every decision I’ve ever made, every relationship I’ve ever built or cut off, every blessing and answered prayers God has granted… has led me here. Now. Molded me into this person I am today and from what I can tell for myself, it’s not that bad. Not that bad at all. So why bother attaching myself to ideas of uncertainty when I currently hold the opportunity to continue living my life as if I’ll live a hundred more years? I don’t know where I’ll be in 10 years, let alone the next 30 minutes… but one thing is for sure, I’m still living… and I still have an unlived future ahead of me. For now, I think I’ll focus on that. =]
